Randomness

I miss u, I try not to miss u but it's so hard. I wake up with the thought of u everyday and it kills me. I go to sleep with the thought of u so sleeping is hard. I dream of you, of how we used to be, of how we could be. I want to say that I don't love u because that would have everything so much easier and less painful, but to say that means that u never existed and all the things we had never happened. I shouldn't love u, but I can't help but to love u with all my heart :) .